Trying to weather the storm,
afraid of changes to the norm,
nothing on the brain but lots of fuck,
wondering if I'm just shit out of luck.
So many things happened to make you mad,
but I truly know I wasn't all that bad,
so I still hold on to hope,
until that day you tell me nope.
Nobody left when all is clear,
I know I am truly alone here,
I'm not giving up, I can't, I won't,
When I ask you about it you tell me don't.
Mixed signals and confusion, nothing seems clear,
except the truth that I want you here,
I'm letting you go, and I hope it works,
But in the back of my mind, a despairing thought lurks.
So emotionless and cold about it all,
shows me you've put up another wall,
Many years and promises and professions of love,
I look for help from the Lord God above.
I'm a shell of a man, with a hole in my life,
still clinging to hopes of calling you wife,
I like to think that it's only a test,
But I feel I don't know you when I knew you best.
I want to start over, and make it all right,